Evolution:::Wake Up

Evolution:::Wake Up

So what did I learn today?  What was the revelation while running on the beach.  What have you known this whole time that I just discovered today?

I think that somewhere along the way, both myself and a vast part of society it seems, have taken the position that "hard" is cool.  That is not cool or trendy or acceptable to acknowledge other people we encounter daily.  That to be disinterested in others somehow speaks to my self confidence or bravado or coolness or whatever.  It comes from a world based on comparison.  I am better or worse than that person because of something I observe with out even speaking to them.

So when I started to happily say hello or hi or how's it going to every person, I began to watch their faces and reactions.  What a shock.  People liked it!  They responded warmly. 

Then I started to think about how it feels to have someone acknowledge me... Basically what I have searched for my entire life.  That small, hey ... I noticed you.  Realizing I am not invisible.   Then I started to consider the impact.  Did their run improve slightly (mine did). Did they smile? (I was).  Did I impact their afternoon? (Mine changed). Does someone on vacation now think... Wow, Long Beach people are nice! (I am!).

Wow... Such a insignificant and normal thing... To acknowledge another human being.  To be nice.  I can't believe it took so long to see what it can do.  I should have known all along... Its all you have ever displayed to me... Kindness. 

Evolution::: I am a little more awake today and again... Your gifts continue to add such great beauty to my life.  What would I have done without you? 

Evolution:::My Enchanted Heart

Evolution:::My Enchanted Heart

The striking columns of beautiful amber sunlight break through the thick forest canopy.  The kaleidoscope of vibrant greens and the symphony of beautiful sounds make this place the perfect combination of Eden, a hidden utopia and a mystical forest that's most enchanted.

The spears of light that streak from the flawless cobalt blue sky bounce off the ripples of the water and the surfaces of the stones that make up this tiny's rivers edge.  

You come from a great distance but only moments away.  Your soft, delicate and beautiful bare feet move swiftly to the waters edge.  There is no sounds as if your bare feet are actually floating across the ground.

The stark but soft white of your short dress glows.  You are illuminated by a light that comes from inside of you.  The perfect angelic glow is always present - it never dims.

You move so softly and step in to the cool water.  You always know exactly where to go and with out looking, you simply kneel down to find the new resting place of your personal and hidden treasure.

You reach down and dip your fingers into the water.  The most gentle and radiant smile erupts and you laugh as your gentle touch moves the sand just enough and the bright familiar glow of your amazing secret object breaks through the rippled surface of the water.

You carefully reach in and curl your soft hands underneath its smooth surface.  You feel the long sharp edges and smooth surfaces.  You look intently in to the stone and hold it to the sky.  You close your eyes and whisper so softly, "Come back to me just once more."  As soon as you speak the words, you open your eyes again - knowing the truth - that I never left.  I never leave.

Immediately, the clouds separate, the trees somehow bend and the energy of the sun, summoned by your presence alone, streak from the sky and into the stone in your hands.

The exposed gem, absorbs and harness the elegant sunlight.  Inside, the color moves slowly and then faster and more excited by your command of the light and the sun.  The colors flash and swirls and become almost blinding with brightness.

The most beautiful display of color is now in your hands of creation.  Ruby reds, ocean blues - a non stop revolution of the rainbow continues inside of the still wet, slick stone.

The colors and light begin to push themselves from inside and millions of point of light shine from inside.  Each tiny point of light, a cell in the creation unfolding.

The rock in your hands suddenly, but as your hoped, softens.  The rhythmic beating begins.  You feel my pulse come to life.  The millions of beams of light solidify and the shape of my body begins to form around the stone.  You see me begin to take shape around my heart in your hands.  You can feel the air move with the first breath and you can barely begin to see the bright reflection of your perfect smile inside my joyous eyes.  

Suddenly, a sound.  A snap of a twig in the woods.  Your head swings in a panicked motion.  You look terrified as a intrusion into this place is immediately felt.  You search for the sound - someone is watching.  You have to run.  I too realize.  I try to say no, to protest - but it's impossible.  A return to my repeated fate.  A final troubled smile, a look to my eyes.  An unspoken goodbye.

The desire to hold on just on more second is ripped from you by the instinct to flee.  Your fear takes hold and you loosen your grip for just a moment and my heart slips from your hands.

The intensity of you, I, the energy of creation and the majesty of this place begins to dissolve.  By the time my heart reaches the rocks below it has returned to its form as a stone.  As it strikes against the rocks in the river bed it explodes and  I have completely disappeared.  

The shattering of the stone cause millions of fragments of light, color and love to rocket through our paradise and into the universe.

You pick up one tiny perfect piece of the still glowing colored glass from the water below.  You take this one tiny piece, a tiny fragment of your momentary creation, one tiny piece of pure love in the palm of your hand as you begin to run back into the forest.

Suddenly... you open your eyes.   You shake your head to try to remove off the dream.  Someone is near you.  They say your name but you can't really hear them.  Slowly, the sounds of reality begin to rush back in.  A car door slams.  A horn honks.  People talking in the distance. 

You hear your name again.  They ask if you are ok?  You force a weak smile.  Everything remains slightly muted as you return to your world.

As if it was months ago, you remember the moments of the dream you just left.

You can not speak, but you look to your hand clenched in to a tight fist.

You are squeezing so tightly you fingertips are numb, your nails blanched of color.  Your hand is shaking.  

You slowly open your hand with feelings of terrified hope mixed with delightful fear.  Your brief smile falls away and your breath is taken from your lungs as you open your hand... to find its empty.

The immediate shock to your heart is felt followed by the involuntary tightening of your throat.  The same shock travels from the lump in your throat and rushes to your understanding eyes.   

Your still staring at your empty palm.  One single tear escapes from your eye, slides slowly down your flush and warm cheek.  Your sweet tear, falls from your chin and into the palm of your open hand.  

You are warmed again inside of your chest, and for one final moment you are shown the truth.  Looking into the rainbow reflection of the single tear in your hand 
- you can witness the world of your dreams, the colors of the universe...

and the story of my enchanted heart.

EVOLUTION ::: Value

EVOLUTION ::: Value

There was some discussion and I am thinking a lot about value to day.  How to value you something with no monetary basis.  We value everything in regards of money.  "What's that house worth."  "That is an expensive car."  "That is a high end____ because it costs more than the other ones."  Money is the measure of value in our society.

There is a lot of things that have no monetary association that are hugely valuable however.  If you think of your family.  Or your health.  

Interestingly, we place high value and importance in the views of others.  Why do we do everything we do to look good.  For us, or for the ones looking at us.

Finally, the love and approval of others... I could speak volumes on each of these areas but what is really on my mind to day is the value I place in individuals I respect and love and how much happiness it brings to know that the people who I value - see my accomplishments.  

You see, lately - I have experienced such great joy in sharing my accomplishments with an individual that was the catalyst for huge changes in my life.  Again, the value she saw inside of me, even when I refused to, allowed her to convey a belief in a brighter tomorrow.  I, eventually, believed in it also.  Subsequently, her belief - based on the value she saw in me allowed me to try to do something different in my life.

Conversely - I place huge value in this person.  I want her to see and hear about my life.  It makes her happy.  Why is that important ...

Because when you cross paths with one of the best people... Someone with such great beauty, intelligence, character and such a brilliant and  colorful soul - then you realize that you want them to hold you in high regard.  If you realize you have met one of the most amazing people that you will meet in your entire life - then their opinion is of great value.

Basically - I want you to be proud of me because I value you.  I put value in your smile, your satisfaction, your opinion, your approval... There is value to me because of you.  The immense and huge value because of who you are and what you mean to me.  The value is not measurable.